I want something special. but i wanna fuck too. cuz that’s what I want to do. but i want this to be a natural desire between us. Not just me. I don’t need to commit to you to do this. That’s like playing house. Let me create the desire on my own to want to be “committed” to you by just experiencing your person and allowing us to have a relationship that’s incapable of existing with anybody else. That I desire. You can’t really get that by forcing me to have a title that comes with pre-mediated societal rules and obligations that are supposed to the be sure-fire way of obtaining an everlasting relationship.
People try those relationships all the time and they end horrendously. Let’s just…be us with each other and see how that works out. Like fully us. No facades. No bullshit. and see how that turns out. If it’s supposed to exist then it will. Instead of it existing because we’re purposely forcing the idea.
I just got a lot of epic shit in my life that I’m trying to make happen and if I have to put a lot of thought into it without instinctively wanting to then it won’t work. I know that. I’ve accepted it. That’s why I am living how I am now.
Just become apart of me so that we never have to separate.